Progress Updates

Good News, Bad News

Another week is done and I find myself still feeling down about my progress despite today’s weigh in being a “good news, bad news” situation. The good news is that I finally crossed the 10 pound barrier but the bad news is only barely. My weight is now 148.8 pounds so I am down a total of 10.2. I didn’t lose a full pound from last week to this week. I had one bad eating night and was not as good with my water intake this week as I should have been. But I exercised every day and despite stress at every turn (work stress, marriage stress, mom stress) I didn’t give in to my desire for bad food as much as I wanted to. I even resisted donuts provided to everyone in our office building by the property manager. I don’t know what else I can change about my eating or my exercise that will get the scale moving in a significant way again.

Back to the drawing board I guess…..

Progress Updates

One Month In

Wednesday marked one month on this new weight loss routine. I didn’t take pictures when I first started but I have decided to take progress photos when I reach each monthly milestone. Here are the photos I took one month in….




I really hate that side profile picture. My youngest child is nearly three and I look about 4 months pregnant. I really hope to see a difference in that shot when I take these pictures again in August.

Aside from being a big milestone day for my diet, Wednesday was also an emotional day. I went with Ryan to get his test results back from his specialist. It turns out that he not only has one rare illness, sarcoidosis, but he also now has another, reactive arthritis. There less than 20,000 cases so while the stats are unnerving, it goes in and out of remission and treating the flares is fairly simple. After this appointment, we continued our argument from the day before. Sigh….

The bad luck continued on Thursday when I was leaving for work and discovered a drywall screw in my rear tire. Ryan said he would plug it in the evening but commuting in one car, with a stop to drop the kids off at daycare made me late for work. In all this stress, my anxiety and panic were in full effect and I was cursing the Universe for being against me. The Universe, however, decided to send me a very direct message. I am not a religious person but I do consider myself a spiritual person. I have a friend who is a Reiki Master, does tarot readings and helps people discover their spirit animals. A while back, she helped me determine that my spirit animal is the turtle. Turtles embody the need for determination but also the need to slow down. As we were driving in to work and I was in panic mode, traffic had to slow down for a massive turtle that was in the middle of the road. It was a huge slap upside the head from the Universe telling me to slow down and relax.

Today was my weigh-in and measurement day. I weighed in at 150.2 pounds. Overall I am down 8.8 pounds. I have 17.2 pounds to go before I make my primary goal and 30.2 pounds to go before I make my secondary goal. Also, since I started taking measurements 2 weeks ago, I have taken an inch off my waist, an inch off my thighs and two inches off of my hips. I am overall really happy with my progress and can’t wait to keep going.

When I completed my first fitness reward chart, I rewarded myself by ordering some Lipsense. Lipsense is a long wear lip color to which I have recently become addicted. Tying the things I love to healthy habits makes staying on plan a little easier because I know I have these nice little treats to look forward to. Amanda, my Lipsense distributor, gave me a 20% discount when she heard they were weight loss rewards and I earned a free color from her online party which just happened to coincide with me earning my first reward. I ordered a new gloss, since mine was nearly out, and two new colors. My reward arrived in the mail today so it was a nice surprise when I got home.


Just Venting

Today Sucks

Today sucks…there is just no other way to look at it. I got out the door late which means I got stuck in traffic and had a choice to make. I had to choose between stopping off at Starbucks for my double espresso over ice or being on time for work. I chose being on time so I had to start my day a little less caffeinated than I would have liked. Bad decision.

During the course of my workday I was buried with multiple urgent priorities all needing my attention at the same time…payroll, benefits open enrollment, scheduling interviews for positions that need to be filled, etc. On top of that I had a nice little tiff via text with Ryan which always puts me in a fabulous mood. I have had a headache all day that won’t go away. It is about 300 degrees outside but about 30 degrees in my office. All of this stress means, I’m hungry. Not hungry for carrots but hungry for carrot cake. I am my number one saboteur when it comes to getting in shape. Between the stress of life and the stress of my anxiety, food is a great comforter. It makes you feel so good. Spicy food and chocolate both release the same endorphins as sex. In my life, it is so much easier to have a brownie or a spicy burrito than it is to have sex so I often choose the former. They say that exercise releases those same feel good chemicals but I haven’t reached that stage yet. Me and exercise are currently in the pain and agony stage of our relationship and I don’t mean the fun “50 Shades” kind of pain, I mean the “dear god someone kill me” kind of pain.

The sad thing is that I know the rest of the evening is going to get any better. I have to leave here, fight traffic, wrangle my kids from daycare, fight more traffic and go home. Once home, I will have 4 dinners to prepare (mine, Ryan’s, Aidan’s and Kaia’s), do dishes, do laundry, workout, wrangle the kids into baths and bed, bathe myself and probably end up in round 2 of the tiff with Ryan from earlier in the day.

Normally, if I didn’t give in to stress by eating it away, I would drown it in a bottle of white wine. But alas, I am giving up alcohol until I get this diet well underway.

It is going to be a looooooooong night….